Mr. Gilbert

grrah.

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 16:39:33 GMT

now i remember.

i must've missed the kick off!

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 17:30:33 GMT

ahhh bonjour!

today's life lesson is that when life kicks u in the balls, eventually relief comes.. and u will appreciate normalcy at a higher degree.

for everything that has been sour lately, the last 24 hours has been cloud 9999.

today proved that i underestimate myself. and yet again, a distinction can come about with half a paper completed.

hello y'all, today i earned an honorary title!

ENGLISH:
I GOT MY HONOURS!
AND GOT A DISTINCTION FOR MARKETING LAW THAT I FEARED FAILING.
which rubs out the disappointment at my credit for accounting.
and my missing a HD every single semester whilst at uwa.

elation is salvation.

autoBAHN!

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 09:39:43 GMT

i want a cat.
if i had one, i'd name it juice.
but my mum said no, so no.

my shoulders are burnt.

blip.

life is complicated but today i laughed and laughed. and tmr i shall scream and scream from terror as i ride the RAMPAGE! BAHAHAHAHA!! i'm going to ride it 6 times. one for every single thing that's bothering me.

blip. blip.

of disturbed nights and silent mornings

Tue, 01 Dec 2009 10:58:24 GMT

i'm beginning to enter pathetic mode.
i hate being pathetic. but pity on myself i shall have for i render it from no one else.

last night i had a nightmare, and i woke up in tears. i got so disturbed i crawled out of bed and stood in the spot in my apartment where my dream had ended. i then had a puff, and thought to myself that we should treat ppl and live our lives as if we/they are/were gonna die tomorrow, and that my dearies is today's lesson in life.

on that note, i'm being a biatch these days and karma is biting my ass in every way possible. left right centre up down.

if only there was a ctrl+alt+del to life to end tasks and processes that are not responding in an effort to clear up the stagnancy of the current moment. that said, even task managers can not respond as my trusty laptop has proven an hour ago.

bah humbug.
tonight is a dance and tomorrow a trance.

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 05:32:11 GMT

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm
hmmmmmmmmmmm
hmmmmmmmm
hmmmmm

to be or not to be, that is the question.

i always want what i can't have.
i think i enjoy being troubled. coz i always seem to be. and yet, i never chase the simpler things.
hello, i'm in perth and no one else that i could give 2 cents about is.

eid was shit. it was a first.
and i keep eating steak burgers.
i'm going to explode.
i lost 6 kg, to gain 1.5kg back.
and all i'm looking for is a promise.
for one person. and i'll survive.
i realize with end points and time frames, things are more manageable.

people only go to a shrink because they don't have friends and need someone to talk to.
ask carrie bradshaw. she told me that, and i believe her.

one aspect of my life i did have a fairy tale imagination about is very blatantly not going to happen for today i woke up and i am 21 years old.

and now my privacy has diminished.
so goodbye!

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 11:59:55 GMT

today was a marvelous day.
i made tom yum goong with my cousin, no paste involved and we talked and talked and talked.

and came up with life criteria.

simplicity at its best.

although i wish a certain someone was pinned to my arm, we can't all have what we want.
excuse me, hello, i think about u all the time and whilst i wish u well, i beg that u get thrown into my view very soon.
it's very hard living a life of regret. 2 weeks is shit, wat more 2 years.

i want to curl up in a ball and sleep til i am 23/24. and wake up and whine about being too old.

i refuse to be a 27 year old bride!

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 04:55:53 GMT

let us be everyone's pillar.

build a taj mahal.

Meester Bossman?

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 07:29:01 GMT

see i have this gem. it's so shiny u risk going blind looking at it.
and everyone gets too distracted by the twinkle not to realise that it's not in its eye.

it's one of those very colourful ones, it can go pink, blue, purple, green, yellow..
depending on the angle u look at it. and i thought i knew all the colours, but today i realize i don't.

i want to. because it's so beautiful, really. it'd be a shame.
u see, u see..it exists on this pedestal. quite tri-pod like. makes u think u know it from left and right.
but the bit that sits on the tri-pod, it hides so well. and the insides, concealed to be damned.
i stare and contemplate and try turning it around, re-adjusting its position to end up staring and contemplating at the same thing.

but once in a while, it gives me a little peek of the brown.
and it's not an ugly brown, it's one of those glittering kinds.. with hints of sunshine yellow and olive-green and purple.
the kind of colour u try to get onto ur dress, but never happens.
kinda like an oil-slick in all its beauty.
and to tell u the truth, when it gets slippery like that, my hands are already cupped right there in position to catch it when it falls.
but it tries so hard to balance itself that sometimes i wanna flick it over, just to catch it.

maybe then i'd see it inside out.
but for now, it rests where it rests.

and the phone's never too far away.

my life, the emoticonized.

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 03:41:00 GMT

i have the perfect emoticon on msn to describe how i feel right now.

it's called jerm.

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 07:21:26 GMT

all this "healthy" eating, sans exercise.

4kg in 3 weeks?

50's lookin like a good number.

aujourd'hui, j'ai decide de prendre l'apres-midi pour moi-meme.

well. to do the dishes. not that i didnt take last night for me. but this afternoon the "for me" is making sure i have clean clothes to wear this week, and clean coffee mugs for my caffeine fix dans le matin.

the strongest days in the week are saturday and sunday.

haha ahhh..

a bientot!

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 07:15:05 GMT

oh it has begun.
oh dear, u look so lost.

sometimes we get too smart too late.

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 07:56:43 GMT

2 1/2 years later it materializes that i am the daftest girl on the planet.

but today i realize that my parents are pretty cool. both.
silly comfortable backpackers, who are getting more open minded. i like it.

ahhhh appreciation stings.

now that i'm beginning to stabilise.

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 05:02:05 GMT

I hate it when people call you using a private number and don't leave a message.
My instant reaction would be to go through a list of people in my head who i know uses a private number, eliminate those i assume would have no reason to call me, and then narrow it down to one person who may have called and text them. Because, you see, i don't like not knowing who attempted calling me.

Just in case it was someone I really wanted to talk to.

In my eyes, the only excuse you have of using a private number is if you're calling from overseas.
Even then, leave a message.

Phonecalls and text messages aside, yesterday was a disaster. My attempt at completing 6 essays was a massive failure. I have only completed 3/4s of one, and today shall be the death of me. I am determined to do them all today and still finish off whatever's on my Thursday agenda.
and to do that, i shall make sure i eat properly. coz i think i couldn't think yesterday coz i hardly ate. see, it's already workin.. i had breakfast and lookit me gooooooooooooooooooooo.

In all my years of resisting facebook, i feel a crack forming in the foundation of my beliefs. but i shall be strong.

alright, remember..

1. chicken noodles are not made of chicken.
2. stalin was not from germany.
3. people with dreadlocks eventually get sick of them.

for memory's sake.

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 14:31:43 GMT

neeeeee! says:

weds: finish 6 marketing law essays.

thurs: finish last audit lect. read through all the lect notes. and practice the mcqs.

fri: read through the law essays. correct what needs correcting. then finish 4 ACA lects.

neeeeee! says:

sat: finish off ACA lects. REad and tab my legislation for auditing.

neeeeee! says:

sun: finish read the legislation. revise law and print the necessary legislations.

neeeeee! says:

ok finish

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 09:01:37 GMT

i been down this road before,
where the passion..it turns into pain.

but i am ms soldier talib.

right, boss?

ouch.

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 17:56:54 GMT

mummy,mummy..call the doctor..
my chest is ripping in two.

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 15:30:34 GMT

mon dieu.. votre voix endormie..
m'aider......................................................

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 14:59:38 GMT

gerek ah seeehhhhhhhh

wakkakkakakakaa

me n my rotten francais.

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 18:20:00 GMT

bien sur le temps dira si.
mais pour le moment, je n'abdiquer pas a vous...

parce que je crois que je suis amoureux de toi.

continuer a essayer, pour moi... s'il vous plait.

i TINK

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 18:24:43 GMT

i'm better than this. and definitely worth more than this.
and shall therefore put an end to this nonsense.

it's officially your turn to try.

it seems to me.

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 03:28:14 GMT

saturday mornings should be the bestest. if u're awake for them.
a bowl of oatmeal, 2 hours of music videos, a self-given pedicure and facial, followed by a hot cup of green tea.

P L E A S U R E!

as for the rest of the day, i do not know.
but right now, cloud 9 is looking pretty low.

the l u g e.

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 16:38:29 GMT

we riiiidddeee.

haha haha haha haha haaaaaaaaaaaa

i thought of you, and my worst brings out the best in you.

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 17:59:32 GMT

today i wished i could be truthful.

so i shall say this in redemption,
it's getting harder and harder to ~~breathe~~ leave.

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 21:26:54 GMT

i wish i could tell u i'm engaged by my next birthday,
and married by the next.

but it's still a long twisted road.
and it may never end.

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 20:11:49 GMT

Just wanted you to know: I love you.
Years have passed since we became close friends.
Every day I find I'm thinking of you,
Though no word from you that message sends.
And yet we share all other thoughts and feelings:
I cannot wait to tell you of my day,
And you give me the gist of all your dealings,
Which makes me hope we walk in the same way.
Telling you this is opening a door
That never can be closed again, and yet
I must, because I ache for something more,
Something that I must risk all to get.
Some night, perhaps, we'll go hang out somewhere;
I will reach for you, and you'll be there.