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[Nov. 29th, 2009|01:32 pm] |
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm hmmmmmmmmmmmmm hmmmmmmmmmmm hmmmmmmmm hmmmmm
to be or not to be, that is the question.
i always want what i can't have. i think i enjoy being troubled. coz i always seem to be. and yet, i never chase the simpler things. hello, i'm in perth and no one else that i could give 2 cents about is.
eid was shit. it was a first. and i keep eating steak burgers. i'm going to explode. i lost 6 kg, to gain 1.5kg back. and all i'm looking for is a promise. for one person. and i'll survive. i realize with end points and time frames, things are more manageable.
people only go to a shrink because they don't have friends and need someone to talk to. ask carrie bradshaw. she told me that, and i believe her.
one aspect of my life i did have a fairy tale imagination about is very blatantly not going to happen for today i woke up and i am 21 years old.
and now my privacy has diminished. so goodbye! |
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[Nov. 11th, 2009|08:56 pm] |
today was a marvelous day. i made tom yum goong with my cousin, no paste involved and we talked and talked and talked.
and came up with life criteria.
simplicity at its best.
although i wish a certain someone was pinned to my arm, we can't all have what we want. excuse me, hello, i think about u all the time and whilst i wish u well, i beg that u get thrown into my view very soon. it's very hard living a life of regret. 2 weeks is shit, wat more 2 years.
i want to curl up in a ball and sleep til i am 23/24. and wake up and whine about being too old.
i refuse to be a 27 year old bride! |
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[Nov. 10th, 2009|01:54 pm] |
let us be everyone's pillar.
build a taj mahal. |
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| Meester Bossman? |
[Nov. 7th, 2009|04:03 pm] |
see i have this gem. it's so shiny u risk going blind looking at it. and everyone gets too distracted by the twinkle not to realise that it's not in its eye.
it's one of those very colourful ones, it can go pink, blue, purple, green, yellow.. depending on the angle u look at it. and i thought i knew all the colours, but today i realize i don't.
i want to. because it's so beautiful, really. it'd be a shame. u see, u see..it exists on this pedestal. quite tri-pod like. makes u think u know it from left and right. but the bit that sits on the tri-pod, it hides so well. and the insides, concealed to be damned. i stare and contemplate and try turning it around, re-adjusting its position to end up staring and contemplating at the same thing.
but once in a while, it gives me a little peek of the brown. and it's not an ugly brown, it's one of those glittering kinds.. with hints of sunshine yellow and olive-green and purple. the kind of colour u try to get onto ur dress, but never happens. kinda like an oil-slick in all its beauty. and to tell u the truth, when it gets slippery like that, my hands are already cupped right there in position to catch it when it falls. but it tries so hard to balance itself that sometimes i wanna flick it over, just to catch it.
maybe then i'd see it inside out. but for now, it rests where it rests.
and the phone's never too far away.
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| my life, the emoticonized. |
[Nov. 4th, 2009|12:40 pm] |
i have the perfect emoticon on msn to describe how i feel right now.
it's called jerm. |
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